i didn’t know it was trauma

I have learned so much about trauma in the past year.

Trauma is different for each of us. Aka what I find traumatic may or may not be traumatic for you. And that’s okay.

Trauma is dealt with in many different ways. Most of the time, I’m a verbal processor.

Trauma isn’t a one and done thing. Even after you think you’ve processed everything, you will probably have to process it again. And again. And then again. For the rest of your life.

Trauma doesn’t have to be a physical. For so be many years I didn’t realize that trauma could be emotional or verbal. The only thing I was taught about growing up that would be traumatic were things like assault or a car accident…things that resulted in physical aspects.

Trauma presents itself in many ways as we grow older…some of which are not the healthiest coping mechanisms.

Trauma and trauma are different. Big T and little t are different kinds of trauma when it comes to counselors…but to those of us who experience it…it doesn’t necessarily make it less impactful.

Traumas that we experience can cause us to hold beliefs or limitations that we can’t recognize.

When I first therapy I thought I had experienced trauma once in my life – my rape. What I have come to learn is that although that might be the only one of my traumas that had a physical component to it, I have been suffering with trauma for decades.

It’s a hard pill to swallow. Knowing that events in my life were significant enough to be considered traumatizing to me. Maybe had I realized earlier that they were traumas, I would have dealt with them in a healthier way that just pushing them under the rug and trying to forget about them.

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