meds

One of the things about needing medication throughout my life is when that medication needs to change, it becomes this big elephant in the room... where I know stuff isn't right. I know that I'm not right. A couple of weeks ago, I was diagnosed as Bipolar II. For decades, I've known that I suffered …

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comfort level

I've reached that comfort-level point in my relationship with Jake... ya know...that point where you can walk into the house without ringing the doorbell. To me, the best thing about that point in a relationship is that although I am 100% comfortable with the sexual aspect of our relationship... there are times where it doesn't …

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im fine

It’s the answer we all give …even though we all know that we are full of a bunch of shit and we’re not really fine at all. It’s the easy answer. It’s the answer that people won’t question. It’s the safe answer. I know I’m not fine. I know that decreasing my medications to wean …

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burning orchid

Burning orchid The orchid is one of my favorite flowers. It's unique beauty. The dramatic colors. Temperamental (at least to those of us who don't have a green thumb). Like roses...the various colors of orchids have various meanings. Exotic. Graceful. Strength. Delicate. Love. Luxury. Femininity. Joy. Passion. Admiration. Creativity. Spirituality. In a way, I'd like …

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grief

Note: I realized as I wrote this particular blog...it started as one thing and transformed into feelings that just flowed...so it is what it is. Hope you're able to follow. Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Depression. Acceptance. The 5 stages of grief. The following charts were can originally be found: https://www.washington.edu/counseling/2020/06/08/the-stages-of-grief-accepting-the-unacceptable/ Denial can look like:can feel like:avoidanceshockprocrastinationnumbnessforgettingconfusioneasily …

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