Ten years ago my husband had an affair. Ten years ago my world shattered under my feet and I feel like I have done nothing but try and put my life back together since that point. I wrote about the whole affair situation in the blog titled "Erin". But what I have to continually remind …
Tag: vulnerability
burning orchid
Burning orchid The orchid is one of my favorite flowers. It's unique beauty. The dramatic colors. Temperamental (at least to those of us who don't have a green thumb). Like roses...the various colors of orchids have various meanings. Exotic. Graceful. Strength. Delicate. Love. Luxury. Femininity. Joy. Passion. Admiration. Creativity. Spirituality. In a way, I'd like …
it’s been awhile
It's been awhile since I've blogged. I don't like that fact. I really enjoy writing and getting my thoughts, feelings, and experiences out there. But, I have been struggling a lot lately with my both my mental and physical health. That makes it hard to write. My mind jumps from topic to topic wondering if …
most of the time you wouldn’t know
I spend my work days dealing with people all day every day. Whether it's one-on-one or a group of 10...in person or a phone call or a virtual meeting... I constantly have contact with people. I can deal...but at the same time by the time I am done with the day, I'm mentally and emotionally …
anger
I got yelled at today for over half an hour by an employee who was angry over some things. One of the things that he said multiple times was how he had "anger issues". Don't worry...this blog isn't going to be about me complaining about my job or about my job at all. It has …
not okay
I’m not happy lately. I put the smile on my face and push through each day. No one knows the other side. No one knows because I go to great lengths to hide it. It’s embarrassing when someone asks you how you are to tell them “actually not great.” Most people would probably stand there …
no one told me
I remember very little from when I was younger in terms of sex education. In fact, I can sum it up pretty easily in 5 bullet points: Sex is for married couples. ONLY.If you have sex, you will get an STI (and it will be the most horrific thing that could ever happen to you)Condoms …
something
I have no idea what or when, but I can tell something is coming. Something is off. I’m exhausted while fully rested. I feel lost. I feel lonely despite being with a house full of people. I feel on edge. My anxiety is through the roof. I could cry at the drop of a hat. …
i didn’t know it was trauma
I have learned so much about trauma in the past year. Trauma is different for each of us. Aka what I find traumatic may or may not be traumatic for you. And that’s okay. Trauma is dealt with in many different ways. Most of the time, I’m a verbal processor. Trauma isn’t a one and …
his choice
Jealousy is a big thing. Whether it's friendships or relationships or work...jealousy can be toxic to those around you. Maybe we have low self-esteem and think we aren't worthy. Maybe we have a hard time trusting those around us could have our best intentions at heart. Maybe we have unrealistic expectations when it come to …
Journey to Exist 