fake smiles

Fake it til you make it? That’s the saying… but I’m exhausted.

Faking it takes time and energy. Keeping my story straight with who knows how much. What if I mess it up?

Faking it helps me keep people at an arms length. Besides…everyone that I’ve let in closer in the past leaves anyway.

If I fake it then no one really knows how quickly I can go from “happy and great” to “maybe I should leave” to “I want to die”. If I fake it, then I’m always just “good”.

Faking it keeps people happy.

So, I guess I’ll just keep faking it and put on the smile so I’m “okay”.

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