Ten years ago my husband had an affair. Ten years ago my world shattered under my feet and I feel like I have done nothing but try and put my life back together since that point. I wrote about the whole affair situation in the blog titled "Erin". But what I have to continually remind …
Tag: marriage
his choice
Jealousy is a big thing. Whether it's friendships or relationships or work...jealousy can be toxic to those around you. Maybe we have low self-esteem and think we aren't worthy. Maybe we have a hard time trusting those around us could have our best intentions at heart. Maybe we have unrealistic expectations when it come to …
terrified to disappoint
I peed on the stick while he was at work. This was a horrible idea...because when there turned out to be two pink lines rather than just one, I panicked. I peed on another one in hopes that maybe the first one was a false negative. It came back with two lines. I peed on …
he takes her
I don't know about you, but most of the time if someone were to ask me where I was yesterday or what I had to eat or drink, I would seriously have to think about it and even then I might not be able to come up with an answer for you. If it was …
happily ever after
I'm sitting in a hotel room tonight. Close to work because of bad weather. Big king sized bed and all I have to keep me company are the thoughts running through my head. "They get married and live happily ever after." Sure... I would describe my marriage as a happy marriage. However, a happy marriage …
choices
Hubby went out last night with one of his regulars (I'm not really sure if she is considered a girlfriend or not). Despite myself considering myself polyamorous, it can still be hard to watch him go out on dates. He comes home from work on time. He showers and makes himself smell good. He'll even …
slut
My hubby decided to go back to see a previous partner. I think I wrote about her in my posting about being diagnosed with HPV. She wasn't the meta who was understanding and willing to work together...no, she was the one who said "since when did Bri have another partner and why wouldn't she use …
cheating
Photo by RODNAE Productions on Pexels.com I personally think that there are more people that have dealt with infidelity in a relationship than we think. It's "easy" to come out with infidelity when you are the one "wronged" and you choose to end the relationship. But what about those of us who have stayed in …
why
I've had some amazing conversations with my bff lately... all about how hubby and I are in an open marriage. What does that mean to us? How does it work? What feelings are involved? What happens if...? What boundaries do we have set up? What have we learned? I love my bff. She is amazing …
erin
Erin and I became friends when I trained her at a job that I was leaving. She was a few years younger than me, but she and I seemed to connect on a deeper level than I did with other friends of the time. I was just starting to officially date my hubby. Hubby was …
Journey to Exist 