Do you ever have those things that immediately transport you to a specific time or place in your life? Songs or smells. Certain phrases or drinks that take you from 2022 to a place of the past. Some of the memories are good and some of them are not so pleasant. Some of them are …
Tag: anxiety
what’s my diagnosis?
So one of the great things about the internet is that you can look up every little symptom that you might have. The problem with that logic is that you're looking up every little symptom online and a simple head could be just that or a brain tumor that has you dying tomorrow. If you've …
are you happy yet
A couple of days before Christmas, I posted on my Facebook page a message along with a picture that said I was trying to be real. I was trying to put it out there, that no matter how much society tells us to be happy, that I just couldn't. I know that many people had …
another side
Last night I wanted to die. The holidays are hitting me harder this year than in the past. The amount of things that I've been trying to process and let go of finally hit me last night. It's a scary thing to feel like death is the better option. For those who know what that …
maybe it’s time for goodbye
I've been on the fence about writing this post all day...partly because I know that if certain friends read it, they are going to know who I'm talking about even if I were to leave names out. But at the same time, I have found that if there is something that is on my mind …
brain spotting
For those of you who don't know what brain spotting is... it's fascinating. I did my first session last night with my therapist. I don't even know where to begin to talk about it. It's somewhat similar to EMDR therapy. However, bestest therapist ever JoAnn told me to journal about some of the thoughts that …
let me be
I’m not going to lie and say that the past couple of weeks have been easy…they haven’t. My doctor and I have been changing my meds and I had a horribly bad reaction to one of them that led to suicide contemplation and thoughts of hurting myself. In twenty plus years of being on meds, …
through my eyes
Do you have anyone in your life that you look at and you see who they really are? Not just the physical side, but you see them? There is something special about seeing a friend for who they really are. My BFF is going through some hard times lately...feeling angry, sad, guilty, and unworthy. But …
the answer shouldn’t be no
So last week I had my therapy appointment…I knew it was going to be a hard session just because I felt blah for lack of a better term. After some conversation, a question series of questions was posed. Do you love yourself? Do you like yourself? Do you remember the last time you felt either …
disappointment
I work in HR. Part of my job is to give disappointing news to people. Sorry, your background check hasn't returned. Sorry, we'll need to postpone your start date. Sorry, we will not be moving forward with your application at this time. I give disappointing news on a somewhat regular basis. I don't have a …
Journey to Exist 