I spend my work days dealing with people all day every day. Whether it's one-on-one or a group of 10...in person or a phone call or a virtual meeting... I constantly have contact with people. I can deal...but at the same time by the time I am done with the day, I'm mentally and emotionally …
Tag: anxiety
something
I have no idea what or when, but I can tell something is coming. Something is off. I’m exhausted while fully rested. I feel lost. I feel lonely despite being with a house full of people. I feel on edge. My anxiety is through the roof. I could cry at the drop of a hat. …
tired of the hurts
I’m constantly worried with those that I care about (and sometimes even those that I don’t care about) if I’ve offended them or hurt them on some way. Did I say something wrong? Did I do something without realizing? Did I not take into account the feelings of others? Too often I think that it’s …
dangerous words
I don't deserve it. Photo by Sebastian Su00f8rensen on Pexels.com Those are dangerous words. Words that logically I know are not true, but words that I feel deep within my soul. I begin to jump down my rabbit holes. Why would someone love me? Don't they see how imperfect I am? Don't they realize that …
chasing tails
I sent my boss a link to a video on youtube last week. She had asked me how things were going and it was my response to her. It was a compilation video of dogs chasing their tails. I said...this basically sums up how I feel most days. We had a good laugh over it...knowing …
drowning
Sometimes the what-ifs just scream in my head. They place doubt where there shouldn't be doubts. The cause me to fear what is and what could be. I end up feeling like I'm drowning and can't get air. Therapy helps. When I'm in therapy, it's my air source. It seems so easy to float on …
what would you write
Photo by Linda Eller-Shein on Pexels.com If you had to write on these post-it notes the labels about yourself...what would you write? MomWifeFriendDaughterSisterAuntIn-law Let's go deeper... fearful and surpriseddepressed and thankfulanxious and peacefuldreadful and satisfiedalone and supportedscarred and triumphantinadequate and astoundedinsecure and secureguilty and passionatehopeless and eagersadness and affectionatehurt and optimisticresentful and hopefuldisgusted and excitedconfused …
friend groups
As I look back on the friends that I have had in my life, I have always had different groups of friends. Elementary School: Sunday School friends. School friends. Middle School: Church friends. School friends. High School: Church friends. Neighborhood friends. Band friends. Popular friends. Awkward crowd friends. College: Band friends. Chapel friends. Home friends. …
choices
Hubby went out last night with one of his regulars (I'm not really sure if she is considered a girlfriend or not). Despite myself considering myself polyamorous, it can still be hard to watch him go out on dates. He comes home from work on time. He showers and makes himself smell good. He'll even …
no more school
I always have these grandiose ideas that sometime during the middle to end of it I wish that someone had talked me out of it. Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com I realized not long after getting my bachelors degree that a degree in ____ wasn't going to get me anywhere. I thought I knew it …
Journey to Exist 