forgiveness. noun. the action or process of forgiving or being forgiven. forgive. verb. to grant pardon for or remission of (an offense, debt, etc.); absolve. to give up all claim on account of; remit (a debt, obligation, etc.).to grant pardon to (a person). to cease to feel resentment against:to cancel an indebtedness or liability of: …

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Music has this amazing way of taking me back to points in time that I may not have thought about in years. There are certain ones that take us all back...graduation songs. Wedding songs. Then there are songs that you didn't realize you had that type of memory associated with. I'm a musician. Or at …

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It's been over a year since I've talked to John in any way shape or form. It was a year ago that he told me that we were just "having fun" and that I should not even think about him until I apologized to his wife. It has been a year of trying to forget …

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My daughter recently celebrated her 12th birthday. Where does the time go? I swear that I'm not old enough to have a 12 year old (let's not actually talk about my age). She is turning out to be an amazing young lady. She is thoughtful and kind. She is smart and a hard worker. She …

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You know that saying, right? That hindsight is 20/20. It's easy for us to look back at moments in our life and say "i wish I would have done this...or said that." But...we know more now than we did then. We know what worked and what didn't. We know the consequences of the choices that …

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There are so many things that I want to talk about, yet when I go to write, it just sits there. The screen stays blank and I wonder what words to use. I wonder what people will think. Here we are...another new year is ahead of us. Everyone is setting their intentions and their resolutions. …

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Remember that writing assignment that my therapist told me to do?  Go live in the anger and the feelings of that time.  Write.  Write it all down.  Get it on paper.  Don’t re-read it.  Don’t edit it.  Don’t censor it.  Just write.  Get it on paper.  Yikes.  9 ½ typed, single-spaced, 1” margin pages later …

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The assignment is to start in the angry place that I was when I first found out that my husband had an affair. What We are talking about bringing up feelings that I have spent the last (almost) ten years trying to stuff down and pretend that I've been healed and fine. What happens when …

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Let me put on the mask. Let me smile when I want to cry. Let me blink enough that maybe you won't notice the tears. Let me say everything is fine. Let me not share any real details about myself. "How are you?" "Fine." We all do it. "Fine." What about those times when we …

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