I’ve been on the fence about writing this post all day…partly because I know that if certain friends read it, they are going to know who I’m talking about even if I were to leave names out. But at the same time, I have found that if there is something that is on my mind and I keep thinking about it…I need to write about it.
Friendship is a two way street. Or at least it’s supposed to be. I love my friends. I love them hard. I know that I am not the best person out there and that I have made lots of mistakes over the years. Friendship to me is something that evolves and changes with time.
Sometimes learning to say goodbye to friendships is hard, but I have also learned that sometimes it’s just not a healthy match anymore. It doesn’t mean that I don’t care about them…but I have to put myself and my heart first. I can’t fight for friendships that the other half doesn’t want to save. I can’t be someone who I’m not in order to fit their mold of what they need in a friend. I won’t put my beliefs and emotions aside to make their life easier.
Unfortunately it leads to heartbreak and lots of questions. One day at a time. Hopefully I can continue to break down my walls.